Today is my rest day, and thank God for it! My sides are screaming, my legs are burning, and I am just in overall recovery from the beating I've been putting myself through. Despite my woes, however, this is not as difficult as my brain panned it out to be prior to jumping in to this decision. "What decision?" you may ask. Well, the decision to change my life.
I was pushing 200 lbs, which is not acceptable for my 5'3" frame. I have the notorious back rolls that women dread. My thunder thighs rub together when I walk. I went to get my driver's license renewed, and when I got it, I thought to myself, "OMG! When did I get an extra chin!?!??" My arms are fatter than they've ever been. Even my feet have grown in size! My butt....well, I love my butt, even if it is a lot bigger than it used to be. It has a good shape. ;-) I have cellulite on my CALVES, people! Ok, so you get the picture. I was NOT a happy camper. I needed to step up. I needed to GROW up! I was so stuck in, "Ugh, I'm fat. Someone reach out to me and help me change." Well, welcome to the real world, Nick! NO ONE CAN HELP YOU BUT YOU! It wasn't hard to flick the switch. It really wasn't. I just made it out to be hard prior to jumping in. I was convincing myself that I was too weak, too fat, too down-in-the-dumps, too undeserving, too broke, too SORRY for myself, to change. All not true. All tremendously stupid lies. ALL of them!
I don't have a lot of money. As a matter of a fact, my family is in a great deal of debt. When I made the decision to change, we'd just completed rehoming 10 puppies. We'd used a bit of that money to play "catch up" and to help prepare for hubby's (then) pending deployment. And I'd decided, "You know what? If I keep sitting here waiting for inspiration, it will NEVER come. I will just keep gaining weight, keep doing the same old crap, and die a lot sooner than I'm willing to let this life go." I wasn't ready to admit defeat. I wasn't ready to say to myself, "Ok, well, I guess I'm okay with my lifestyle that will kill me." Because I was NOT okay with that.
A lot of my battle was not knowing the way. I knew what was mentally needed of me to keep the workouts going, but I didn't exactly know HOW to eat right, nor was I willing to adhere to some of the foods I knew I should be eating. It was just easier to say yes to cookies, yes to cakes, yes to donuts, yes to white rice, fried foods, sugar laden foods, and the like. I thought by not eating out so much and just making everything from scratch, we'd lose weight. Nope. I thought if I just cut out soda, we'd lose weight. Nope. For some people, yeah sure, little changes may work. But for me, I needed to make the change whole-heartedly, 100%, or else I'd just fall back into old habits. So what did I do?
I signed up for a Challenge Group. I signed on as a coach. Initially, the coaching network was just to save an extra 25% on my future orders. I didn't even really THINK about the possibility of reaching out to others and helping others because I was so consumed with the ME I needed to fix first. And that's okay, people. There is NOTHING wrong with realizing that you need to fix YOU before you are fully capable of helping others. For many, it takes some serious time before they can really be of any true service to another human being.
I'll tell you one thing though. This decision has been the best I've made.....ever. I'm making more friends than I ever knew I could have. And we aren't talking just acquaintances. I'm talking real FRIENDS. Being in this business has taught me how to REALLY open up to people and be emotionally vulnerable to letting others in. Over the years, I'd developed a wall to guard unwanted hurt and the possibility of pain. That's no way to live! And you know what? By emanating the will to succeed, and living a life that I can be proud of, I am attracting people LIKE ME who want the same things and perceive the same goals that I do. The people who are Debby Downers and Negative Nancys aren't attracted to successful people. They want to be around people LIKE THEM who will feel sorry for them and help them wallow in their sorrows. Decide right now which person you want to be, and then ask yourself want kind of people surround you. Remember: who you attract is who you are. If you want to change who you attract, you must first change yourself.
Success can be anything you set your heart to. YOU CAN HAVE ANYTHING you want. Are you already coming up with arguments as to why not? Well, then you're digging your own hole. Stop arguing, and start listening. It IS possible. It IS attainable.
I recommend the book "First Steps to Wealth" by Dani Johnson. Better yet, go to one of her seminars. You will come out a new person, and will shake the hand of success shortly after.
In the meantime, I need to go build my business, meet a lot of new faces, become the best me I can be, and spread the wealth of happiness that has been bestowed upon me. :)
God Bless You Guys, and thanks for reading. :)
Aloha,
Nicky
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